Do you think I helped him?

I don’t know what happened. I just felt that I need to go home early. My first purpose was only to help my father in washing our clothes. I didn’t expect that I will do something else that afternoon.

You may know him but still I’ll just call him as my son. At the time I told him that I’ll go home with him, he just looked at me. I just thought that maybe he was already waiting at that time so I fixed my things immediately. When I finished, I saw him walking away. At first, I thought that he was going to leave me but when I got in the school bus I saw him and he reserved a seat for me. He was quiet for awhile but it didn’t take a long time for him to tell me what he was thinking. I didn’t ask him anything. I just listened to him for I know that it was what he needed that time. I already noticed it when I talked to him after the flag retreat but I just seriously thought of it when I sat beside him felt that something was bothering him.

I understood what he felt because I had experienced all those things. All the emotions he felt from the start, I know their reasons. I just advised him to help himself not to be affected by others that may discourage him. If they pressure him, don’t be one of them. He should always be optimistic and think that everything happens for a reason.

I hope that I helped my son. I just don’t want him to suffer or experience the same thing I had before. I also hope that he’ll have good health at all times and he’ll always do his best and consider each day that will come will be the best day of his life.

Salot na Pera

Ano ba talaga ang halaga nito?

Perang nagdudulot ng gulo sa mundo.

Kahit mabuti man ang adhikain mo,

Ito’y may kapalit lagi mula sa ‘yo.

Gamitin mo ito, bumili ng gusto.

O kaya pangtustos kung kailangan mo.

Ngunit kapag ika’y namihasa dito,

Dulot ay problema sa pamumuhay mo.

Kaya ano ngayon ang masasabi mo?

Mahalaga nga ba talaga sa 'yo 'to?

Kung 'to kaya'y wala rito sa 'ting mundo,

Sigurado na ba ang pagkakasundo?

Halina't sa pera'y huwag papatukso.

'Wag hayaang maging lamang 'to sa iyo.

Ang kapangyarihan ay nasa kamay mo,

Kaya gamitin 'to palagi sa wasto.

Missing You

For the past two years, I never forget about my grade school classmates. Often times, I remembered the moments we shared to each other and had fun together. I missed them very much that’s why before, I visited them in their school whenever I had free time. But it is different now. I changed.

When I started in third year, I became busy. We always have assignments and we seldom have free time. I am more focused in the present happenings in my life and I almost forget about my former classmates. But I know God made a way for me not to do that. It was only two months when the school year began but I had seen many of my former classmates. I saw some of them in malls. One of them, Che, visited me in our house. She was one of my closest friends. She had been in our house for many times and I was happy because she was the only one who visits me even if there is no occasion. I also met Bill, my former seatmate when I was in sixth grade, in church.

I was very cheerful when I saw my former classmates. I still miss them. I thank God for making a way for me to meet them again. Now I know that I didn’t really forget them and I never will. They will stay and always be in my mind and heart even if many years had passed. All I need is to organize my schedule so that I’ll have time for serious things and time for having fun.

Best Friend and Responsibility

How many friends do you have? How about the best friends you have?

For me, everyone can be my friend. They will just differ on how well I know them and how often we spend most of our times with each other. My closeness to my friends may vary depending on the different situations like if we are neighbors, classmates, schoolmates or how frequent we see each other and do common things. Some may be my close friends but not all my close friends are my best friends.

Since I am not very sociable I only have few friends. At my age of 14 years old, I can say that I only have one “official” best friend. You may be thinking how it happened. Before, I have two playmates who are also my neighbors. We looked like best friends when we were together but we never called each other like that and it was never clear to us since we never talked about it. We just enjoyed each others company. Most of my relationships were just friends and close friends and only one can be my best friend.

As I define best friend, he or she should be my one and only greatest friend. I also consider having a best friend as having a responsibility. Whatever happens, I should always be there for my best friend. That is my other reason for being contented of having people around me just as my friend because I don’t want them to expect something from me and the same thing from them.

How about you? What do you think is the relationship between best friend and responsibility?

Yes and No

Have I ever asked myself to give up in Cavite National Science High School?

“No, I will never give up.” I will do my best to graduate at CNSHS. That was how I think when I was still a freshman. Of course, there were lots of new things that time which brought excitement in the new chapter of my life. I was pleased in every fresh things introduced to my mind. I joined the clubs I was interested at. And the best part was having new friends.

But when I became a second year student, I realized the truth. One day, I just woke up from my dream in my perfect world and told myself, “Yes, I do want to transfer”. I saw the real world inside our school. There were unfair things that happened. I discovered the negative things which sometimes lead me for saying that I better study at other schools. But someone told me that it was just normal. I can’t avoid those things in schools, in any place and even in any situations in life. There is no perfect thing in this world, even a school. Now, I am not thinking of that anymore. I will just continue to do the right things and to be not affected by the pessimistic things in my environment.

After a few days I wrote this, bad memories became weeds that appeared and bothered me. I made myself busy to forget everything about them but there were really persons that I can’t please to not remind them to me. Until now, I can’t say that I will never think of giving up in CNSHS.